The Oake Raven

In my head is my clarity. It’s there that I make sense of my feelings, my ideas, and my understanding of the world. If I have clarity of a situation, I have no need to talk something out. I talk things out when I lack clarity and someone can offer it. Because of this, I often get asked why I don’t express my feelings or thoughts more.

When I am not focused on something in particular and I have a moment to myself, I spend much of my time in what I call my “nothing box.” It’s a state of being that does not allow for racing thoughts. No thoughts focused on my stress. No thoughts on my feelings. I am just existing in a moment of presence when and while I can.

When I come out of that nothing box, I enter a state of mind of relevance. I keep my attention on situations that are relevant to what is necessary rather than on things I don’t know for certain. I won’t bother with stress that doesn’t need to be stressed right now, because I understand that focusing on stress won’t make it go away unless I have action to take to dissolve that stress. And there is no way for me to know that a particular stressor will or will not go away on its own anyway. I have had amazing things happen and I won’t pretend like it’s not possible.

When I’m not in a moment of clarity or in a moment of relevance, I am in a moment of creativity. I write. I create. I tap into the part of my mind that makes things I desire possible and that only brings me even more clarity.

And so my cycle continues.