The Oake Raven

I had a dream last night, and you all know I’m gonna share it now. 🙂

But first, I had a thought last night before bed and maybe this is why the Universe decided to reach out in my dreams. The thought was, “With all of my experiences that have proven beyond a doubt that there is something bigger than me out there, why am I not compelled every moment of every day to connect with it?” So I sat and stared at a spot on my wall and wormed through my mind, finding that one spot that feels like “making eye contact with the Universe.” That little spot in my mind is where I put my focus when I do readings for you all, but I almost never reach out for myself. Maybe because when I do, I feel selfish. Maybe I feel like it’s enough for me to help other people, and my own life is to be steered in my own way until they butt in. That’s kind of how life has been to this point. But whatever the case, I found that spot and I said (in my mind), “I’m here and I know you’re there, but it’s like we don’t talk much anymore.” Then when I went to sleep, I dreamed this:

I was lying on the ground in the yard of our old house–the one with the dam that we just moved away from. It was night time and I was sleeping under a blanket, in the grass. I looked up and I saw the silhouettes of branches swaying against the night sky, then I saw a pair of eyes looking at me from a tree, with the moonlight glistening off of them. I thought, “Oh wow, that’s an owl.” I could see the little tufts of feathers on its head–it was a great-horned owl. Then I noticed another pair of eyes, orange this time. I got up from the grass and while I rose to my feet, the sun rose with me so then it was daytime.

This is all a confirmation of what I have been feeling is happening in my life these months with my out-of-character anti-socialness and focus on writing…I’m shifting into a new phase of my own thinking and a new creative focus. Makes sense as I near 40. The way I am seeing people, the world, and my own life path is changing, but it’s being encouraged.

1. Sleeping on the ground in the yard of my old house is the way of conveying the idea that I am still processing the change of homes, which is influencing me at this time. And it is–I feel it every day as I wake up forgetting where I am and still feeling like I’m in a stranger’s home, as much as I love this place (It took me 2 years to get over that when we moved into the previous home).

2. The branches in the night are a representation of life transition, cloaked in mystery and uncertainty. I mean, hell, I’ve been saying how I feel something is off…something is coming…some storm I’m going to let myself walk right into.

3. The great-horned owl is a symbol of intuition and seeing beyond the surface of things.

4. Orange eyes represent guidance to an awakening, through creativity.

5. The sun rising with me is new understanding and a new beginning coming when I regather myself.

All in all, the Universe is saying, “Hey, we’re still connected. You’re just going through a thing. I’m keeping an eye on you–just process and be creative.” Funny how often that’s the advice I give to so many through my readings for their own life changes and transitions.

Being reminded that I’m not spiritually alone felt nice. I mean, I know I’m not alone because readings for others are still accurate and flowing just fine, but there is that very human part of me that struggles to hold that connection at all times, even for myself. I say it, out loud, to the Universe whenever I try to manifest something, too.

It usually goes something like this: “Hey, Universe? Let’s be honest, I’m still human, and as much as I hate catching myself distracted by dumb human things when I do, this is the ball-and-chain of life’s experience here, and YOU know it as well as I do. So, please help?”

Ah, the human experience… a mix of emotions, memories, hopes, fears, and uncertainties that never stops. Yet, we often feel like whenever humanity shows up, something is wrong or that it’s the end of the world.